there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the
greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. J
you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and
find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that
you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding
things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is
drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay
where you are or move forward.
You get heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love
someone and cannot figure out why you cannot be a part of his life, even though its something next to impossible.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You
begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the
shack and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special
someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now.
through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with
your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for
yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d
just like to be a contender!